Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Catching breath;
to survive.
I just ate a bar of white chocolate today. >.<
Of late, I have noticed that I grew rather hot tempered and have became impatience. This is bad, really bad. And I got irritated and pissed off by myself because of my change of attitude and character. It's not that I did not notice my changes, but I have allowed it to take over me than to slow down, correct them, and pace on in this race.
Something of what Genia said today evoked a reflection in me. I shouldn't be so selfish as of wanting my work to be attended to the first or the fastest whenever I hand up, or want it to be corrected as soon as possible just because I want to rush my work. Other's have their work to be corrected too, and they have their lifestyle to pursue too. Sigh.
Even though I had took notice of myself, I don't know if it was out of stress. I just know that I have been very tied down with work and work and work, test and test and test, and perhaps, self-add on stress to those subjects I have not been doing well, and excelling in.
Sigh, sometimes I wonder if people do understand me. And in times that I have uttered the wrong words, will they still take it to heart. ): Yes, now I dislike missing school unless I'm really down with sickness. But I believe in the eyes of my classmates, they treat it as another day I deliberately missed it. You know what? I no longer care. The love between us are just one-sided. (: Perhaps these are things I no longer want to care because I have no more strength.
Yes, I dislike tears too.
maoed.]
at 7:39 PM
+++His child.
jiayi; jean. 060488// hope// sound ministry// neb1// grace's sheep// phs// 5compassion// basketball//
+++smiles.
Him// simpsonx// shuping// red.black.white// eight// violin// guitar// disney// animals// kids// adidas// bottoms// horror::thrillers// watermelon// peach// mango// tomato// tea// fish// white chocs// marshmellows// shopping// friendships
+++frowns.
noise// dirtiness// chili// pork// snake// comedies// thunders// lightnings//
+++memories.
chalet//
courageous camp//
devotees//
devotees`bbq//
faith camp//
firework`04//
foundation camp//
life in the kingdom//
neb//
phs`03//
phs'04//
seventeen//
siMpsOnx//
student conference//
the ultimate dare//
+++books.
a love worth giving// a woman's answer to anger// every young woman's battle// helping others without hurting yourself// journeys of friendship//
if you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat// in the grip of grace// love beyond reason// loving God with all your mind// recapture the world//
the friendship's of women// traveling light// wild at heart// words that hurt words that heal//
